STEP ONE
Make a post to your DA journal. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a ______ icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("all I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV."). The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your DA or link to this post so that the holiday joy will spread.

STEP TWO
Surf around your friends list (or friends' friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here's the important part:

If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use -- do it.

You need not spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf -- to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not -- it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Give, and you might receive. and you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.



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My List


1. Even for just one day, I don't want to hear a negative word or thought. I want to know only happiness, peace, and joy for one day. I don't want to hear swear words or fighting. I don't want to argue with anybody. I just want to live in peace for one day.

2. I would trade anything for the picture of Eternal Sailor Moon that :LightAngelSky: drew. I have loved this picture for almost a year now, and she has been holding it just for me until I get enough money to buy it.. I fear that I still don't have a job, and I have nothing to offer her in return. I could draw something for her, but it would be like trading a stuffed cow for a 2010 Camaro. Her drawing is the best ever, and my drawings would be the equivalent of scribblings on paper.. *depressed sigh* I would frame that picture and stare at it for hours every single day.

3. I would love to have a talent. I would love to be able to make pictures like Kaminary-san does, or like Light Angel Sky or Priscillia or any of the other great artists here.. to all the people I am watching, I love your art. I really do. But sometimes it just depresses me because I want to make beautiful things for you to see, and I just can't.

4. I would like my mother to talk to me, and treat me like a human being. I want her, for once, to acknowledge the fact that she shattered my dreams.. and I want her to understand that my entire life was spent trying to make her say, just once, that she was proud of me. I want her to actually answer my text messages or phone calls. I want her to tell me something about my real dad.. or at least get married to my stepdad again.

5. I would like to meet my real father.. even if he's the most horrible person ever, I have to know. I have to know something about him. I need to know that he knows I exist. I don't... want anything from him. Just a hug. I don't even know where to start.. my entire family refuses to tell me anything out of spite.

6. I would love to actually meet :LightAngelSky: because she is my best female friend. She is like a sister to me! In fact, she IS a sister to me. My sister from another mother! We are two peas in a pod.

7. I would love to get a novel published.. but since it isn't even done yet, I don't know why I wish for this.. probably because I already know that I will never finish it. If I had a chance of getting published, I swear I'd try as hard as I could. But I just.. don't believe anymore. I know that the world doesn't treat everyone fairly. I am 19 years old right now, and I have been through more hardships in one year than most people see in a lifetime (please don't pity me.. it isn't often I talk about my problems).

8. I have desired this for years: [link] . It is called Sad Pinou. I don't know what that means, but I.. just.. I don't know. I emailed the owner of the website to ask where they got it, but they live in another country and.. yeah.

9. I've seen a million little trinkets here on DA that I love, and invariably told the creator how much I would give to have them. I desperately desire a job to buy all these things that I see on this web site. Necklaces, earrings, Sailor Moon stuff (I even saw Christmas tree ornaments and shoes).. all the people I'm watching have something I desire to buy from them, be it artwork or some trinket. I watch them so I don't forget..

10. I was saving number ten.. for a special Sailor Moon artbook called the Infinity Collection. But.. thinking about it right now and rereading the last sentence of number nine, I know what I really desire. I want to remember things. I have.. such a poor memory. It gets worse daily. I don't know if I have some.. memory-eating disorder or what, but it's so bad now that sometimes I forget to eat. I'll forget what I'm talking about in mid-sentence, or I'll be driving and completely forget where I am or what I'm doing or where I'm going. I forget passwords to sites that I sign into daily. I forget how to spell things, and I forget where I place things. I just want to remember all the things I love.. I can't remember anything from my past at all. Only the past few years can I really remember; I only have bits and pieces of the years prior. They say that in life, you should always cherish your memories.. but if you can't remember the happy times you have had, how can you combat the horrible things you face from day to day? I want to remember things.. something other people take for granted, I lack. I just want to know why.. and if there is anything in this world I can do to at least prolong my memory for even just a little while.. if I could remember even just a week forever, I would make enough memories to last me a lifetime.



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I'm sorry for being a downer. Don't really pay any mind to me.. I just get depressed around the holidays; it happens every year..